Still Waiting

Well, the next post isn't a picture of Josiah like we would have wanted. I have had some contractions, but nothing that has lasted or been consistent. On Wednesday evening/night, I really thought I was going into labor only to be disappointed with contractions stopping around midnight. When I was pregnant with Thomas I didn't have any contractions until I went into labor and I was really hoping the same would be true of Josiah.

We are trying to patiently wait, but I will admit it is difficult. Josh is having a hard time focusing on his sermon because he isn't sure if he will preach it. I'm having a hard time doing anything, because all I want to do is have a baby! I have caught up on laundry once again this week and I'm praying that I won't have to do another load until Josiah is home.

I think I have mentioned that I recently read the book Respectable Sins: Confronting The Sins We Tolerate by Jerry Bridges. One of the sins he brings to light is the sin of discontentment - we are never satisfied with where the Lord has us. The Holy Spirit continually convicts me of this sin as I groan and complain about waiting on Josiah. Isn't it so true that we have such a hard time being content? I wanted to get pregnant 9 months ago and was discontent until I was pregnant. Then I wanted to be over morning sickness and was discontent until relief came. Now I am discontent because I am pregnant, over morning sickness, and just want to hold my baby! The Lord truly is slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love to care for a wretched sinner like me! I think the Lord is using the waiting to sanctify me and oh, how I need it!

If Josiah doesn't make his appearance by my next doctor's appointment on Tuesday, I'll give another update - hopefully with more contentment!

New Year and New Habits

Yes, it is almost a week into the new year and I'm just now posting! The only time I have to blog is now and most days I would rather be sleeping or reading. However, I have been meaning to post about some of the new habits I have begun this year and pray I can continue.

Personally - The Lord has given me a hunger recently to be in the Word more. It is easy to spend a certain allotted time with the Lord in the morning and then not to even reach for the Word throughout the day. This year I have committed to read the bible through using D.A. Carson's plan For The Love of God, which I commend to anyone. He gives you the Scripture to read each day and it will take you through the OT once and the NT & Psalms twice. Carson has also written a short theological devotion (not fluff that you find in many devotionals) corresponding to one of the passages.

I'm also committing to memorizing more Scripture. Last September, I decided I wanted to memorize Colossians because it is one of my favorite books. Thus far I have memorized chapters 1 & 2, so I'm halfway there! I did slack off some when I had the waves of nausea in the first trimester.

Family - Josh & I have committed to spending more quality time together and not simply sitting down in front of the television when Thomas goes to bed. It is so easy to zone out and let your mind dwell on trivial things. We are considering dropping cable all together, but we really like the news shows! However, we have the Internet and we can get all our news there.

Thomas has just dropped his morning nap and I've realized the need to have a schedule for him. Too often he is just wandering around the house playing with toys, but there is no structure to his routine. I just finished the book Toddlerwise and I'm taking some of the principles mentioned there to create a schedule that works for him. Right now he plays by himself if he wants to, but the goal is for him to play in his room for an allotted time that I set. Also, I want to be more deliberate in "mommy" time. By nature, I'm very task-oriented and it is easy for me to become so engrossed in cleaning or laundry or planning that I don't take the time I need with Thomas.

There is just a smattering of what I'm praying about and thinking through for this new year. Hopefully at the end of the year, by God's grace, I will have a deeper love for my Lord and my family!